Lieing to Myself and All of You

by Nicole M. - Gemini

I have lied to everyone
As they have lied to me.
Things were said
and things were did
That weren't a part of me
Something consisting of my reality.
I lied to myself
About being wronged
And about being loved.
The good person I thought I was
Which turns out to just be some facade
to get what I wanted, to squeeze right in-
Bitter truth now here it comes-
I was such a good liar
I forgot I was one at all.
   This talent that I claim to have
That some might agree with
   I'm loosing fast, because I never had it-
a good explanation, pure dumb luck
A few in the beginning
That caught the eye of some people, well respected
Cockiness seeped inside
And tainted halluicinate potential-
But the pats on the back stopped coming
And I had lost that edge.
I lied to myself
And I laid lies-
Ones that came later on found my shallow apeal
And believed that I was good
It was for them,
whatever would get me recognition.
to think I hadn't realized why
I was never happy with anything I claimed.
More to share and more to come
But right now I have class
Gotta run.
Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2001-05-03 14:55:11
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:16
Poem ID: 62543

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