With a short glimpse of nothingness I got turned around -Spun around in circles Stopping completely opposite of where I used to be Before, I was just nothing No life, no being, no self control Walked around in a daze trying to find myself And where I belonged Or... Maybe to whom I belonged My life consisted of bitter hatred, rage And just about every depression one could assume I didn't like myself Nor what I had become Learned Helplessness- that psychology term That's what took me in When everyone else walked out They never stayed long Or if they did, they never existed Not in their minds anyway Taking me for granted- that was their choice And that was what had evoked them to stay around Only to watch me stay on my knees Bleeding my youth like some child searching for a hand to hold To help them find their mom Only I was trying to find my life And where it had gone In youth, I was the one to always get into trouble Wandering off Goofing around too much Living life as though each day were to be my last -To the extreme fullest I wonder what happened to my youth And that wide eyed little girl With her mouth always full of chocolate Then again, it seems as though it's all coming back to me As I find myself walking the road of life With a new view of the world And the biggest smile upon my lips.Birth sign: Scorpio
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