just like before

by Antwan Fields - Aries

id laugh at myself if i could
skirted by love yet again
like an 800-pound gorilla has jumped onto my throat
i find that even as i try to save myself i cannot speak
this has happened again to me again
i cannot smile and shrug it off anymore
its hitting me like a scud missile and tearing me up inside
but ive been there, i will survive it i think 
i cannot close my eyes, i cannot sleep a wink
and i look away from what has become my existance, and i realize that no one else is living the way i am
considering suicide
way too much
just like before.
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-05-08 19:45:03
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:19
Poem ID: 62711

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