questioning everything i say

by Antwan Fields - Aries

heard radiohead's creep on the radio yesterday
ever since i was younger i always thought that life wasn't really fair
and every time i said this to you, you would look at me
and tell me to look up in the air
and i ask one simple question
there is no sense in your reply
i don't really want to know what you did to me and why
no more reason to your riddles
no one cares anymore
ever since you stopped saying that you love me
called me white man's whore
and ten years later 
you'll be asking who died
when i come in waving all my flags in pride
old wounds will open under close scrutiny
from what it means to me
all that you care about is black and white
when i ask you why you always take flight
or come to resolutions, without consulting me
please forgive me if i don't want you near me
if i want to get away
if those hurtful hurtful words that im trying not to say
come spewing from my lips with bitterness at its tips
cause up to this moment i never thought that
that you were a dip
ten years later you'll ask me why i lied
why i wished sometimes that i had just died
if i treated you like crap while i celebrated gay pride
old wounds will open under close scrutiny
and what it means to me
fearing that no son of his, will ever get to live life his way
no son of his, can ever be gay
and no son of his, can ever understand
what you went through to make me tough
think you didn't help me enough
what does it mean to me if i am feminine or rough
and i ask a simple question
listen for your quick reply
i can see youre on the edge
together our last time before you lie
knowing that you really care because of me
first time you've ever cried
ten years later and here we are inside
insisting upon the ride 
old wounds will open under close scrutiny
under close scrutiny
ten years later and i have all my pride
i haven't left yet, and i haven't died
old feelings make me wish that you'd see
just what you mean to me
what you mean to me
what you mean to me
just what you mean to me.

Reason for writing:

    this poem was based on one of the most beautiful songs ever recorded
a song by 8stops7 called, "question everything"
it is a poem that goes out to my sister and brother, who don't seem to understand.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-05-08 21:14:30
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:13
Poem ID: 62713

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