weeping clown

by Antwan Fields - Aries

im not supposed to be the sad clown
im supposed to get everyone laughing, but its not working
i'm supposed to be happy!
but the darkness is lurking
twas' a fat lip painted with a red smile that i have
i got them to smile
no one can see my sadness
that lasts for miles
the flower squirts water in my face and i pretend laugher
it mixes with my tears
after i get the paint off the smile does not remain
it never does, not here
so i sit alone, on the edge looking around
seeming to understand
i am a clown, but only for work
no one lends a hand
and i sit there as everyone shuffles past me
on their way back to town
they ignore me
i am just the weeping clown.

Reason for writing:

    yeah, i know im overstepping my bounds by comparing myself to a real clown. but i try to make people laugh. but to most of the people here i am but amusement and laugh-filled.
not a real friend.
    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-05-11 15:20:06
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:20
Poem ID: 62769

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