ControLLed

by Chritty - Aries


you found it
the thing I tried to hide
I locked it up and threw
a way the key
but you found it inside of me
I destroyed it’s memory
and moved on
but you kept digging
and prying where you didn’t belong
now it’s back
to haunt me
I have spent an entire lifetime
trying to forget how it felt
you ruined all that I had done
and tried so hard to forget
I attempted to bury it underneath
the hostility
but you found it inside of me
deep down way down
but you knew it was there
so you hung around
until your forced yourself in
I told you to stay away
but you wouldn’t
I tried ignoring it but it won’t go away
it’s  your fault
that it’s back
and I get help myself
 I can no longer control the urges
I’m not sure if I’m ready
 for it to return
why did you have to bring my happiness out
why didn’t you just leave it alone
its all your fault

Reason for writing:

    my best friend a person who wouldn't allow me to be sad I know that  its kind of rough..but I think it gets to the point..have you ever wanted to be sad or just to be alone and there is always a person who feels they have to cheer you up..I mean they feel like it's their duty to cheer you up :)    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-05-12 11:24:34
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:20
Poem ID: 62786

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