Too far, too close

by Matthias L. - Capricorn

Responsibilities abandoned
To fulfil an expectation
Never meant to be met
Then revealed in the night
When it went dark enough
To see there is less than nothing
To see what I have done

Worse than all alone
My fears surround me
Shadows of a world
That somehow still rejects me
The dream is gone

I remain silent
What can I do?
Just stare into the fire
Wishing to burn all along
Incapable of taking care
As I was commanded to
The very thing that is to do

I sit and wonder
Why this dream is refused to survive
Again
Worse than all alone
And crying
With a mind to weak to overcome the place
Where words would never leave

Paying dearly for an undeserved desire
Please just crush me
Please don't rush her
Please don't harm her
In this transition 
Of things done wrong
Wasted years
Silence

I wait and wonder
What can be done
Trying to reach the light
Fate made quite clear
I never was meant to fly
So my wings burned away
Bound by newly forged chains
Stronger than gravity
Unable to go on
I wish there was a way
To get out of this lie
Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2001-05-13 10:49:56
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:20
Poem ID: 62798

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