untitled insanity

by eden - Taurus

why are you here?
I almost hate you, despise you
for leaving me
pouring my feelings like red ribbons of 
blood into the clouds
I could never hate you as much as you deserve
but
you could never love me the way I desire
(or could you?)
no
Go find yourself
heartless piece of burning flesh
eroding at my soul
you make me go quite insane
and mad for you
come find me, my love
find me a heart and
a soul and
a body that 
can love again
the capacity is lost
(in an ironic twist of confession)
on your wasted love and 
my drained shell 
of myself
my devoured self-portrait
refuses to love as 
fully as 
I love you.
shattered like you and your ego of 
multiplicity on 
the wall of pink hearts and
plastic poker chips. 

Reason for writing:

    This was inspired by an old flame. I was feeling really frustrated by him one night and spit this out in about 15 minutes onto a blue notepad.    

Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2001-05-18 00:33:32
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:22
Poem ID: 62896

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