Believe

by chritty - Aries

she annoyed her more the words could say
she could feel the anger and hate
slowly building up inside
she was set in her ways
and some thing never changed
no one listen they all lacked common sense
jealousy , pity, revenge the nights had grown intense
they couldn’t stand the sight of each other
how sad it is to dispise your own mother
she had pestered me to an infection
tried to receive all my love and  affection
after so long
the more we fought the more anger I built
until it was ready to bust 
she felt no remorse or guilt
she did exactly what they had said
my mother left us for a man
and she did what SHE thought was right
when she came over last night
after nine years she felt it was time
to bond with the children she left behind
I asked why she left all she could say
was I don’t know
I just had to go
after the man I loved
I never meant to leave my children behind
I wanted to come back
but you father declined
he thought it was best that I stay away so I did
I did what I thought was best for my kids
your father was a good man
please don't hate me try and understand

what’s best is that what you believe
abandonment you think that was best for me
growing up with five different mommies
growing up with issues
that’s what was best
here mother here is the tissue
that I used when I was eight
when daddy would come home late
drunk with a different lady in his bed
and Gabe had to make sure all five of us were fed
only fourteen years old 
and he had to play that role
here is the tissue that I used
when I was ten
and I needed you around’
to tell me things I didn’t understand
thank goodness the strange lady at the corner store
knew what it was that I needed
What’s best is that what you believe
you think it was best to abandon me
a little girl growing up without anyone
without a mother without someone
to understand to explain things to me
this man the one you loved 
was he worth the sacrifices you left behind
did you think about us
did he make you happy did he make you smile
why do you sit there with nothing to say
don’t pretend to cry
here the tissue for the time I
became a woman and things were
happening to me
I couldn’t tell dad it was too embarassing

so tell me you don’t really believe
that what you did was for the best do you
because if you do then I will do what’s best for me
and that is to leave 
leave you the way you left me
don't pretend to care now
those feelings you say you feel are simply not allowed
by a woman like you

Reason for writing:

    a happy little poem for mother :)    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-05-22 20:27:43
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:13
Poem ID: 62986

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