it scares me (feeling this way)

by orange_4_m - Sagittarius

it scares me, feeling this way,
and not knowing why.
to wake up one morning
and suddenly wish i would die.
it seems selfish to me,
it wouldnt be fair,
to cause them great pain
when i know, deep down they care.
to hurt them,
in their own time of need.
and wash away their chance
to finally be happy.
but sometimes i just wish it would stop.
so i wouldnt have to pretend.
that im carefree and worryless,
and put a smile on for my friends.
i wish they could see so bad,
this stoic that i seem to be.
how it ruins the chance
to ever be the real me.
it scares me feeling this way,
and not knowing why.
why sometimes i feel so happy,
and at the same time want to die.

Birth sign: Sagittarius
Date created: 2001-05-23 19:12:59
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:24
Poem ID: 63001

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