DiffEreNt

by chritty - Aries


the semester is over
and here I am at home again
everyone else is the same
everyone but me
I sit here listening to all that’s been
going on
yet I feel like I don’t belong
not anymore
all my friends are the same
Marla still loves sex 
more than she probably should
Edith is still a bum
trying to get a dollar from me
Brittany still dyes her hair
that blonde color that looks
kind of yucky
and Vanessa still doesn’t care
about anyone but herself
I guess something never will change
same old faces same old names
what’s wrong with me
these people I grew up with
I can no longer stand
Howie swears he is no longer a boy
he says he’s a man
it happen last week
with some girl three hundred
miles away
 Kaleb is now called daddy
we all knew it would eventually happen
 Jeremiah he still can’t see
how much he really means to me
Javon oh Javon you still crazy
thinking all us ladies
fall for that I still live with
my momma gag
she needs a man
around
but I pay my own rent
you guys will always be the same
that I can see
something never change
the house  doesn’t really look
the same
in fact it looks a little larger
maybe it’s just me though
I really can’t find anything familiar
inside of me
even though I try
everything seems so similar
everything but me
my room
four white walls covered with pictures
of the past same old bed and same clothes in the closet
same me with different thoughts in my head
father says it will take sometime to adjust
but im not sure if I can
I sit on my bed
holding my pompoms and I wonder
was it all worth it
all that I did
why was it so important
now it seems so stupid
and foolish
I travel down the hallway
and I see all the pictures of me
when I was a little kid
smiling from ear to ear
I seemed so happy
all dressed up
in the picture at the prom
graduation is my favorite one
though because we were all together
I was the only one that left
went away to better myself
now I can’t help but to wonder
will they ever understand
they all suffocate me with their hugs and kisses
 constantly tell me how much I was missed
but I don’t know what to say
I wish for the summer to end
my feet are ready to run
and I can’t wait to escape again
I know they will never be able to understand

Reason for writing:

    I just came back from college and I thought things would be different but almost everything is the same its like im the only that really changed once again im the different one    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-05-29 21:07:12
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:13
Poem ID: 63136

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