My life is Now Ending I sit here alone, I feel so very bad, Whatever happened? What made me so sad? I thought I had something, A hope or what I dreamed, Everything within me, Never what it seemed. The glistening glint of silver, I hold in my hand, Will this be the moment, I leave my beautiful land? The choice now is mine, Should I choose to die, I blink all but once, A tear slips from my eye. I think of what's gone, So far away, What was in my life, Before this very day. I wasn't the prettiest, Person in the school, I was always the one, Wanting to be cool. I felt excluded, And didn't know why, I had no real love, Although I did try. My boyfriend just dumped me, After no sex or no love, I thought there was something, That came from above. My guardian angel, Now seems to be gone, The heavens above me, Higher than the dawn. Depression I suffer, There's an awful fate, I hear a bell for me, Is it to late? Would anyone miss me, If I was not here, My parents do love me, They will stil be very near The tears are still dropping, I'm not doing all that great, Everything around me, Is so second-rate. I have a bad look, On my whole life, Why not end it now, With the sharp silvery knife? I look at my wrists, And cry a small tear, My mind is racing, But I have no fear. The blade slices open, My slightly tanned skin, The blood pouring out, Dripping from within. It will all be over, Not a second too late, I'll fly with the angel above, Away from the life I hate. The tears coming, I know what I've done, I now will die, There won't be more fun. I slit the other wrist, In one smooth slice, This was a really bad move, With my life as my price. Maybe if someone cared about me, I wouldn't have tried, With the pain and the hurt, That I kept inside. But I'm not turning back, And they can finally see, What their lives will be like, Without little old me. I'm sorry you all, I wasn't true, I wish I could go back, And say that I love you.
Reason for writing:
Because I attempted suicide and it's not worth it. If you ever need to talk e-mail me
Birth sign: Libra
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