I try so hard To hide inside The feelings that I feel The shame and guilt Of all that's past I feel will never heal The pain you brought And never thought Of how my life would be The way I've hurt The pain I felt Were kept inside of me In tears I waited In pain I cried For someone to notice How sad I was inside I never once Looked in your eyes But I heard your voice And every lie Always believing What you said Always wishing I was dead The corner I hid in Under the desk Served no purpose For I knew what was next Sacrificing my innocence, Steeling the child in me For all those years I hated me You stole my laughter, And gave me tears You stole my dreams, And turned them to fears Years have passed And I'm still here But the pain of then Is still so clear
Reason for writing:
I wrote this poem as a way to express my feelings about the sexual abuse I endored for so many years as a child by 4 family members. These secrets still live within me 20 years later. Secrets I can not talk about. These secrets I am only able to write about.
Birth sign: Pisces
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