In Tears I Waited

by Andie - Pisces

I try so hard 
To hide inside
The feelings that I feel
The shame and guilt
Of all that's past
I feel will never heal

The pain you brought 
And never thought
Of how my life would be
The way I've hurt
The pain I felt
Were kept inside of me

In tears I waited
In pain I cried
For someone to notice
How sad I was inside

I never once 
Looked in your eyes
But I heard your voice
And every lie

Always believing
What you said
Always wishing
I was dead

The corner I hid in
Under the desk
Served no purpose
For I knew what was next

Sacrificing my innocence,
Steeling the child in me
For all those years
I hated me

You stole my laughter,
And gave me tears
You stole my dreams,
And turned them to fears

Years have passed
And I'm still here
But the pain of then
Is still so clear

Reason for writing:

    I wrote this poem as a way to express my feelings about the sexual abuse I endored for so many years as a child by 4 family members. These secrets still live within me 20 years later. Secrets I can not talk about. These secrets I am only able to write about.    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2001-06-02 21:18:54
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:29
Poem ID: 63230

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