Eventually

by Nicole M. - Gemini

You use excuses because there's such a big part of you that's in denail
You give so many second chances because you never want to accept that you're miserable
And this will never happen
You close you're eyes
And play stupid for as long as possible
Worshipping the statement that ignorance is bliss
Living this part of your life
Like you don't know any better
You know the truth
But you allow yourself to believe the daydream
Because you hate reality
To acknowledge the life is a cesspool
And there's nothing worth anything living in it-
You don't make excuses for any other reason
Than to comfort yourself
And give keep those hallunicates pumping through your body
So you don't have to accept what it's really about.
Eventually
It'll be the little thing that sends you over the edge
That one last drop of water 
That sends everything flowing out-
The last straw no one else would pay attention to
Other than you-
The one little thing
That sends you in the corner
In the fetal position
And pushing all that synthetic anything
Purging out
And you get slapped and rapped
By the truth and reality
You knew all along
But never had the strength
Intelligence to just suck up
And accept.
It'll be that small thing
That sends you into hiding,
Nothing is better than reality.
Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2001-06-14 00:41:20
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:33
Poem ID: 63469

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