I Apologize For Not Living

by Nicole M. - Gemini

I am sorry
As sorry as my past self can feel
For what the present is doing~
I am apologize for not living
They way you'd expect me to.

I find my work is lacking anything worth claiming
And I am not intrigued
Made to think
Challenged 
Or even proud of what you all write
It's all become very bland to me.

I apologize for what has made me happy
The new hair cut
The laughter I find everyday
My set of fake nails
And the seperation I've found
Along with the surface I swim in.

I am sorry
I can't live in my head
For now
And I find anything I've written to be
Ludicrous
And I feel whatever I've forced myself to read to be
Elementary, at best.

I aplogize for not living
As a poet
For this part of my life.
Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2001-06-27 22:53:06
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:36
Poem ID: 63635

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