Unbearable Guilt and Frustration

by TLC - Aquarius

Why does it seem that everyday something goes wrong?
Not one thing seems to go right
Remind me why I go on with my life?
I think about this every night

Fuck life and all the shit that goes wrong
I hope for your sake, you consider yourself  “popular” or “cool”
That way you’ll be too busy with the latest “fads”
And too conceded to realize you are a fuckin’ fool!

Just when things were going alright
I was knocked back down on my ass today
I was supposed to be responsible
Just one second I looked away

This should have never happened
One fuckin’ second too long
I look back but it’s too late to help
What did I do? What the hell went wrong?

I wish it was me instead of that 11 year old girl
It consumed my thoughts all day
I was supposed to be her diving coach
And it was my irresponsibility she paid

To see that innocent face being put into a stretcher
You don’t know the guilt until you see
Until you see the tears in their eyes because they are so afraid
I wish so bad that it had been me

I know it’s not my fault
And I think she’ll be ok
Everyone wants to know what happened
But the fuckin’ guilt, it stays

Just when things were getting better
Almost to the point where I could see
Fuck life for all the bad shit
What am I talking about, Fuck me!!!

Reason for writing:

    I think it explains itself...    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2001-07-03 21:44:09
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:37
Poem ID: 63709

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