Self-Imprisonment

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

Someone once asked me
This past year when the pain seemed to grow too unbearable
To look into the mirror
And tell them what I saw
At the time I said
"Someone disenchanted of what life really is
Someone on the brink of losing self control
Lost and disillusioned by others' lies
Someone so far gone over the edge
It's hard for her to see anything but death up ahead
There's stains of tears upon her cheeks
Emptiness clouding her eyes
Hatred and hurt imbedded in her shattered heart"
And then he asked me why
Why a young girl such as myself could feel that way
And I told him
Told him the long hard story
Of how a young girl lost her faith in God and in herself
Then he told me
"A little bit down the road, look into the mirror once again
After the young girl has been set free from her self-imprisonment
Call me up and tell me again
What do you see?"
So now, 6 months later
I look
I gaze
I stare straight ahead into the eyes of someone I once lost
And see someone completely different
Someone aware of who she is and what she has
Someone full of life and energy and forgiving
Someone no longer looking back thinking of what she should have done
But thinking of what she could do in the future
Someone who has learned how to trust again
How to believe and what to believe
Someone who knows where she is going and is going there with her head raised high
Someone who knows how to learn from an experience
And not to run away. 
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2001-07-10 16:08:40
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:39
Poem ID: 63792

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