There's something I want, I desperately crave Fuck what they say I've no soul to save God damn it, I lost it somewhere back in my past, Fuck I hope this rage inside doesn't last. I'll admit that I haven't always felt like this, This feeling burning inside me of absolute pointlessness. I once listened to the followers, becoming like them just the same, Living in their fake realities, it's all so fucking lame. I used to be so innocent, mindless, and somewhat blind, Now WHY THE FUCK AM I HERE?! is what always comes to mind. It may seem boring to you, I sleep all day, just so I don't constantly think about this, but i know eventually I always wake up, and fall in the same circle, which is nothing I miss. This depression, I fucking hate it it clouds up my mind, which in turn i don't say much, the words are too hard to find. But even when I do say something, nobody seems to really care, It's like nobody understands me, I'm tired of getting that empty blank stare. To know that i'm just another nobody is eating me up inside, I know I'm going nowhere on this neverending rollercoaster ride. I don't even know what makes me happy anymore, Everything seems empty, pointless, and or a bore. everyday this shits always seems the same, I'm tired of playing the same ol' fucking game. Knowing one day my search for good in life will be over, keeps me going, I wish that until then I didn't feel such pain and loathing. Right now I'm just haten the world and everything in it, but there's nothing to do about life, Just Live It.
Reason for writing:
too much
Birth sign: Virgo
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