OnLy 15 (young gangmembers life)

by JoJo - Cancer

Ya im only 15
But you woouldnt believe the shit i done and seen
I joined a gang at 12
I thought my life would change, and it did
It turned to Hell!
It's funny when you think about a 12 year old doin a drivebye
Its even funnier when ur homeboy gets shot
And u leave him there to die
You think your big and bad when you hold a gun
But what would you think if the next day u had a son?
It was always easy to pull a little trigger
Especially when someone pissed me off or called me a wigger
You get jumped in and jumped out
Thats what alot of gangs are all about
You the shit beat outta you
And then they think your coo
You never wore the wrong color in my hood
Cause on my ground is ALWAYS where i stood
Im 4'11 90lbs but i could always take a good hit
YA know y?
Cause i was always down for my shit
Just before i turned 13
I walked up onto a wrong kinda scene
I walked out to the back of a field
Where my homies always got drunk and high
I never knew thats where I would watch them die
A rival gang killed 3 of my homies with a simple BANG BANG..
BANG!
All my homies are dead 
Juss layin there with bullets in their head
So behind the big rocks i hid, and wondered
What should i tell Mr. Dreamer's kid?
All my members shot and killed
Thats the day i felt scared and weak
I could no longer call myself lil' MEEK
I joined a different gang
Ya i got my ass beat
But i got whatever i wanted
Ya it was pretty sweet
I got back on my feet
Just a few more homies 6 feet deep
They lay in their coffins to eternally sleep
gangs in and out
Thats what my life was all about
No one ever knew about my real life
I didnt want to cause them that strife
No one ever knew
They didnt have a clue
I never told no one, not even my mom
Cause i was for sure..soon id be gone
Most of my homies shot and killed, others ODed and died
some just decided suicide
Im only 15 
But you wouldnt believe the shit i done and seen
All this happend at the age of 12 and 13
At age 14 i had finally realized what i had done and become
I thought about everyone i knew who had died...
All the times i lied
I couldnt do shit so i just sat and cried
But one day someone walked into my life
Im no longer affiliated with gangs
And up to my head in strife
She shook my hand and said "hi im marlene"
I looked up to her and said "hi im jolene"

She came into my life and everything seemed better
I'll love her FOREVER and NEVER forget her
Shes my best friend now
As long as i have her i know i'll never be alone no way, no how

Reason for writing:

    I WROTE THIS POEM TO LET PEOPLE KNOW GANGS ARENT WORTH YOURS OR ANYONE U KNOWS LIFE, DONT BE A LEVA..CAUSE THAT SHIT COULD GET U KILLED I ALSO WROTE THIS FOR MY BEST FRIEND MARLENE...SHES THE BEST AND I LOVE HER BEYOND WORDS!    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2001-07-27 07:51:34
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:13
Poem ID: 64164

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