thanks

by ivolve - Virgo

Dear mom,
Right now I should be happy, but I can't forget the past, 
the drugs, the lies the lonliness, and growing up way too fast.
Maybe things would be different if you had shown me what to do , no kid should have to go through the shit that I went through.
How could you keep hurting me? I often wondered why,
Now I'm all fucked up inside, How could you be so blind?!
The "shit" you did causesd so much pain, I said I wouldn't do it ever,it's ironic to think that now the "shit" has brought us closer together.
Even though life seems better now, I will always feel this pain, If only you would have woken up sooner, and realized you needed to change.
I should be happy you're here now, But I know you're not here to stay, Because of everthing you've done your life's the price you have to pay.

Reason for writing:

    mom used heroin/contracted hepatitisC now shes dying    

Birth sign: Virgo
Date created: 2001-07-30 01:18:01
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:47
Poem ID: 64201

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