Victim of Rape

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

Anger
  I hate you
  Hate what you made of me
  Hate what you did to me
  I let it out on everyone who gets too close to me
Fear
  Paranoia takes new meaning
  You know everything about me
  When I'm alone, how late I work
  What time I come home, my house number
  When are you coming again?
  When are you going to strike me next?
Guilt
  I should have done something
  I should have screamed louder, should have honked the horn
  I want you dead, want you in prison
  Want you in hell
  God, am I wrong to want this?
Shame/embarrassment
  Why do I have to say what happened
  Why do I have to explain, live it all over again
  Everyones watching me
  They all know
  I'm dirty, I'm so dirty...
Loss of control
  I can't tell my parents
  I can't tell the school
  Please, I can't tell anybody
  Everythings so wrong...
  There's nothing I can do
  It's hopeless
Why me?
  What did I do?
  What did I say?
  God, are you there?
  Do you even exist?
  What did I do wrong?
  Why me?

Reason for writing:

    What I went through this year and am still going through after the rape.    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2001-08-15 14:15:44
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:51
Poem ID: 64411

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