I've always been one to conquer my fears Look them straight in the eye Hold strong And just go for it Until that fear long since went away Only now... This fear is different So much different than all the rest More difficult to come to terms with Or to even try to look dead in the eye It's not like the times I was afraid of heights Or the time I was afraid to get on an airplane It's not like my fear of spiders Or like when I was younger And I was afraid to look under my own bed No, this time it's different And for once in my life, I don't know if I'm strong enough If I have enough courage to get up Drive there And step anywhere near that place But it's all just so damn clear Repeating in my mind as though it were happening just now He didn't let me go No matter how hard I tried It was useless No, I can't But should I? Should I return? Face my fear? And drive to the playground Right across the street from his house And face it all over again? In attempt to let go of what's holding me back From going on with my life In attempt to end these nightmares These flashbacks of what happened So I can learn to live again?
Reason for writing:
Questioning returning to the place it happened, hoping that it would all leave me, if I just had the courage to face it.
Birth sign: Scorpio
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