Why Do You Care?

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

So much has changed
So damn much...
God, why the hell am I like this?
I don't like who I've come to be
I don't like what he's made of me
Why can't I trust anyone anymore?
Why can't I just open up and have fun?
Look what he's done to me
Look who I've become
Why won't everyone just leave me alone?
Why does everyone have to care so much about me?
I don't deserve all of you in my life
I don't deserve any of you

You all make it a point to remind me how beautiful I am
Even though I can never see what you see
You always try to talk me back into going for Miss Teen New Jersey again
Tell me I should never have backed out
Just for thinking that I wasn't pretty enough
You all tell me that you love me
Tell me that I make hanging out fun
That I make you laugh
No matter what happens
And that I'm the sweetest, kindest person you've ever met
Why lie to me?
I hate myself
So why do you all care?

Reason for writing:

    im feeling out of it this week. no matter how much i try, i just cant be my usual self    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2001-08-16 16:25:38
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:51
Poem ID: 64435

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