am i weak??

by Antwan Fields - Aries

can they see me in this light on the corner at the start
needles of rage driven hard into my heart
agony that i can't be completely yours 
i give it, all of it, up, for im no longer a whore
for love, money, anger and fear
all whispering into my ear
turning me forward and backward and north and east
i find that i can't be happy in the least
something always goes wrong, something that make me falter
never mind being left there, i dont' even make it to the altar!
passing time and passing life 
people i used to know feel faint at the thought of the knife
like seinfeld, life is a comedy, laugh track not included
living in my head like a hermit, in a cave, secluded
im tired and ready to give up and just fall away
but thats not going to happen, not at all, no way
i feel ashamed, with any adversity thats my solution
something not considered, a resolution
sunlight shines on my face and i worry, im not carefree
i get worried and am forced to flee
over time i fold my hands into my pockets, ive got too much time to think
ive reached the unfair conclusion that life, for me, stinks
i jump into the the air physically, smooth and sleek
while mentally, i ask myself, am i weak???

Reason for writing:

    doubts, thoughts, stuff like that    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-08-23 20:05:24
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:53
Poem ID: 64563

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