why they can't(for the danny&paul poem)

by Antwan Fields - Aries

pressure. pain. fear. loathing. love. hate. apprehension.
the list goes on and on
i for one have come out
to all as far as my mother
but i still haven't told my father
because at this challenge i shudder
fearful am i, bravado won't cut it
my father thinks i still like girls.
instead i prefer boys
except when they act like churls
im afraid, pure and simple
i know i'll have to be tough
but this is the worst
who taught me to be tough??
and i don't introduce my family
to most of my friends
because the recriminations
would then never end
i don't know what to do
im at the end of my rope
great time to fall into serious like
now you can call me a dope
rainbow flags and rainbow fags
is an expression used by some of my neighborhood boys
i don't say anything, because i know
thats one of lifes quiet joys
lets go all the way back, pop
i havent changed a bit
but i already know that when i tell him
i'll be in some deep shit.

Reason for writing:

    i read chanel's poem danny&paul(lovers of the night) and realized that I AM PAUL. just as afraid, and just as unready.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-08-23 20:51:43
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:53
Poem ID: 64568

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