Absolute heartlessness of life

by Mystyblu - Taurus

Swallowed 25 pills
wanted to sleep for good
nephew came home early
called 911
paramedics came
woke me up
went to the hospital
had my stomach pumped
stayed in the hospital
a little while
came back home

Life is not any better
only the thoughts of
my young cowboy 
get me through the day
alas, he is not here
but in LA
I am so proud of him
he is doing well
I see glimpses of him on TV
he sends me loving emails
he is so young,
my guy,
but he is playful,
he needs an older woman
to tame him
but not right now

my old cowboy
has abandoned me
forever.
this is the absolute
heartlessness of life
my soul is once again
sick.
I need my young cowboy
so desperately,
but he cannot help me.
he is not ready.

I will leave this place
move miles away
and the pain will
still follow me
the rest of days
of my life

Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2001-08-26 01:45:49
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:54
Poem ID: 64601

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