viCtim oR n0t

by Chanel - Virgo



I never really was the guy
Who fit in every single time
The parties came and so they went
Invitations to me weren’t ever sent
I sat alone and closed my eyes
Contemplating suicide
Depression crept on my face
To my family such a big disgrace
Chased the fuse back to the flame
Burned over and over once again
I tried to try to make it right
Little did I know it was such a fight
A struggle on to live my life
Keeping enemies at my strife
Went downstairs; loaded my dad’s rife
Hid it under my bed for the next night
Stepping in on the school grounds
I’m forever lost and never will be found
Cocked the gun just to make them scared
No one took it serious and just sat and stared
The bullet skidded through the air
I aimed at everyone; I didn’t care
 Now three killed and five injured
 There’s one last life I need to end here
Place the gun to my right temple
Clicked it once…it was so simple
Felt my life being consumed
Finally did my plans so soon
I’m not sorry for what I did
Just sorry that you had to lose your kids
My desperate cry for some attention
Ended up on everyone’s television
My mind is crippled from malnutrition
The lack of love in my disposition
I tried to talk and no one listened
No one bothered to make the difference
Tears and pain are what I know
No blissful days at a constant flow
Now I’m gone buried six feet under
Am I the victim you have to wonder?
Birth sign: Virgo
Date created: 2001-09-01 08:21:04
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:44:57
Poem ID: 64749

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