I don't want you to cry and mope, When you open the closet door and find me hanging from a rope. I had to do it, it was the only way, Life just became too much, what can I say? There was nothing you could have done, don't blame yourself. Remember me as I was in the picture apon the shelf. I love you more than words can say, But the pain and stress of life finally got to me today. Today I was thinking about all the things I've said and done. Looking back, I realized that my life hasn't been much fun. Rembering all the fighting, teasing and tears, Not "fitting in" was one of my biggest fears. I was never pretty enough or skinny enough for anyone, So here I am hanging instead of triggering a gun. Pointing a gun to my head, looking death in the eye, It just would have been to hard to bid farwell and say good-bye! I'm so sorry for doing this to you, For you have taught me so much and your words stuck to me like glue. As mommy's 'angel' please remember me, And also daddy's 'bear' I will always be. Tell daddy not to worry, tell sister not to cry, 'Cause here in my peacefull grave is where I shall forever lie. I'll be watching over you from now untill forever, Untill once again when we will all be together!
Reason for writing:
My life wasn't to wonderful, and I just had to get my feelings out somehow, so I did it through poetry. Luckily my parents found the poem before I did anything. I don't expect a perfect life but it's definetly getting better!
Birth sign: Aquarius
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