thinking back..........

by tattooedbeatmessiah - Libra

i remember  a week long drunk,
starting with jack daniels
and ending with cheap wine,
began on a saturday afternoon,
sitting around drinking,
trying to write poems to you,
to tell you how i felt,
the words were drowned in 
alcohol haze,
the more i drank ,
the less i wrote,
the lines too painful to speak
i don't remember too much
after sunday morning,
i know i was caught by the 
neighbor pissing out my 
living room window, i guess
the bathroom at the end of the 
hall was too far to stumble,
i was well stockpiled,
a small liquor store beside the couch,
two cartons of cigarettes on top of that,
i didn't have to go anywhere,
the days and nites floated into one,
i didn't eat
i didn't sleep
all i was doing was drinking you away,

somehow, that friday nite,
i walked twelve miles in the 
pouring rain, sat on your front yard
and cried,
soaked to the bone and drinking muscatel,
you and your husband came out of our house,
i don't know if it was the wind
or the rain, but you saw me and shivered,
and ran into the house,
came out with a blanket and
asked if i needed a ride somewhere,
anywhere but here,
your eyes never met mine although
i couldn't stop staring at how
beautiful you were,
i know what you were thinking cause
i was thinking it too....
three years too late..

the next day, 
going through the dt's
i didn't see pink elephants
or anything like that...
i saw angels with your face
playing harps and violins
and it made the gut wrenching, sleepless
nite a little more tolerable....

Reason for writing:

    just a draft    

Birth sign: Libra
Date created: 2001-09-18 10:50:21
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:04
Poem ID: 65008

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