More for me

by phillip bligh - Leo

More time for me 

i thought as she left
that mid-afternoon
clouds rolling, summer sun lagging

More Food for me i thought

eating my first of what was soon to be
many unhealthy meals alone
in what seemed like 
and probably was years
The night sky emptying my window
 
More room for me

i said with crying heart
as i lay next to a dimpled pillow 
we used to hold her head 
The absence creeking floor boards in mine

More hope for me 

i reproached
the only thing i had hoped for
that was now gone.
hoped that the tightening of that throbbing muscle in my chest would go away, That the nightmare subside, That some how life would reverse itself, give me a second chance at not fucking things up...
a collauge of bitter sweet memories ate away my reasoning
one nerve at a time 

but the more i got for me
the less me wanted
it

Reason for writing:

    dunno    

Birth sign: Leo
Date created: 2001-09-19 01:39:36
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:04
Poem ID: 65029

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