Just trying to live this life

by Queen of fools (evil evie) - Aquarius

Im just trying to live this life
I didnt want you to pay the price 
My misery controling everything
Please dont pity me
Its just some things
That make it hard to breath
Take deep breaths and the tears take over me
so sorry i know im weak
Im just lost on my own 
with nowhere that feels like home
Im so sad im so scared
some days i dont feel like me
i look in the mirror 
and i dont see how it used to be
cant even reconize the person staring back
lighting ciggerates and smoking my way to death
trying to find new ways to get fucked up
Im just trying to live a worhtless life 
Just trying to find something that feels right
Crying myself to sleep everynight is getting old
This time i think ill fold 
Take a look around and find the razor on the ground
Howd it get there i dont know
But i see what damage i have done
Hating myself my body my mind so much 
And look i didnt even cut my wrist right
So stupid and to scared to succeed 
Look at the ugliness that is me

Reason for writing:

    Doink i dont know 
    

Birth sign: Aquarius
Date created: 2001-09-21 22:10:58
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:05
Poem ID: 65070

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