I Just Wish

by Samantha Lowe - Scorpio

What you did
Was not bad
Nor was it something to regret doing
I could never be more grateful than having someone like you
come help me in my time of need
Even though, at the time, I didn't know that what you had done was the right thing 
No, you weren't there most of the time
That's true
You changed the subject when I needed to be serious 
And you prevented me sometimes from having time alone to figure out things for myself
But what I needed most
You gave
And that was a second chance at living;
I died that day- 
The day that everything happend
I completely died
But after that day
I've become alive
I've learned how to live to the best I could
I apologise for the hurt that I have given you this past year
There are no excuses to say
Tt killed me
Still does 
To look at you and see what I have done
I blame myself most of the time
But I know now, that it wasn't my fault for what he did to me
That I couldn't have helped the way that I felt afterwards
That I couldn't have changed the fact that I seriously wanted to die 
I can't change what happened 
I can't change the past so that he wouldn't have hurt me and I can't mend a friendship that was torn because of it all
I just wish I hadn't of lost you.

Reason for writing:

    A broken friendship    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2001-09-25 14:16:11
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:06
Poem ID: 65130

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