I NEVER

by jazmine - Taurus

I NEVER

I never saw you just came in my life
I didn't sense evil around me
Slowly you put your thounghts inside of me
Look at myself in the mirror and ask who is that
No don't think your pretty because your not
Sit ups, push ups, and running almost done
No I am not hungry I feel kind of sick
No I ate earlier
Come on they believed the lies you told
On the scale no not not there
You make me see who I am 
You feel the void you give me control
You love me and feel my needs
I never suspected something evil was lurking around me
No you never left a single clue
I thought my thoughts were my own
No I am not skinny enough yet
I never thought I was hurting myself
You made me believe it was okay to starve
You showed me the way to purge 
You showed the way to feel good
And then you help me ease to my pain
Now you let me see how bad food is 
I never knew what you would leave me with
I never thought I was in danger 
You held my mind as your sole prisoner
You trapped me inside you won't let me out
You won't leave now you have power
You left me with nothing you have it al
I look but I am no longer here
You have left me void of truth
You have left me with lies
You knew what your doing 
You have won you have taken my strength to fight 
You are the demon who consumed me with one whisper
You have decieved
You make me weaker by  the day.
You won't let me give up
You keep pushing me
You want me to die for you
And I know I will

Reason for writing:

    Just out hoplessness this is how I feel some days about my life and the chances of me surviving this disease.    

Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2001-09-25 16:10:24
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:06
Poem ID: 65137

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