The Excruciating Evolution

by PH Prochnow - Aries

The Excruciating Evolution
19 Sept 2001


......the vigil of a saint........

No one will sit and glory in the thought of 
 their casket, 'cepting voodoo pilled dope
   dogs lapping the wondrous putridity of the
gutter seeking redemption. Jacobins roll
   on the scene and claim rolled heads
     purge it all, but if the reflection is taken up
          the most messianic fit in the box. 

  Even Eli Casque,   
	Eli Casque, whose great grand son lives
In a refrigerator carton under the bridge,
  Had a better send off in his mind funneling
	Profits into the underground 
           to purge his soul for the packaging 
             of his clients before his trade 
 boomed in the Civil War.

	Casque’s fathers followed the commanding 
   standard of the plague to make a nice fat purse, 
Lincoln made him a place, Eli feeling deeply the meat 
    he sported about as his coffin, in an oriental sense, 
        waited to slough it off to birth.

	Now these Western Climes seen as a tomb, 
     we maggots lost sight of the terms
        Of the sarcophagus.

Following the plague many a box-crafter
  surfed the wave of death in austere times
    swooping often past sunset should a prospect
       his sentence, and when the pine was 
all milled the lucky ones who did not outlive
  the craftsman often were interred in cedar.

We plant a many in a war,
 In a hurry, but as war looms
  On the horizon only the most circumspect
    Build their own eternal home,
Facing the reaper most foot drag.
 
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If America wears this shoe,
We maggots then must feast
Sumptuously, dance with a 
Giddy reaper.

Perfidious lesson? 

Legions of our ghosts can bear proof,
As you work to secure your position.

Feel the arctic breath of this spent simile
  As already in the hall of settled history.


As Caesar lead his gods from the heavens
   We lead all this to past images in the stars.
	 To old Hades and beyond with
	Lamia pronunciamentos,
           cry the newly fletched, 
     We fly on as once you flew,
	Aping your custodian farces since
 Last the celestial train left the station,
	Feeling weighted by the hip pocket
	   So the alignment of those bodies shall
	Not crack our planet’s crust.


 Front and center proscenium the boards
	Pliant like a diving board , 
 his face is kohled with this war and tantric tantrums,
	Winging over the land mines if enraged,
	Tornadic, sickly, near unconquerable with
	The plucky cocksureness of youth.
	
	Countless nights his capital crimes grimed
	The walls of your room while you flipped 
           about on balled up   
             sheets scratching
	Phantom fleas, the mind’s rich soil unploughed, 
    imagined fantasies of his death merely his distance. 

   A full midnight
	To dawn of these wishes never comes 
           close to one pull of a trigger, 
               plunge of a blade.


  The escape from his spectre was the only contrition, 
     the frail red wind of dawn puzzling, alluring, 
         faint as solar wind
	    on the most errant asteroid,
	or ideal mathematic solid you can not hold
	in your hand.
	
	The  futile kind acts of the noble
	Are the only true acts,
	We are changed with songs of steel,
	Hymns to bandage, and neglect.

	Let’s leave these truths sober
	And find the revolving disco festive lit
	Revolving on a spire, no grave pleasure
	In mocking the  fruitless ruling sports
	Of all buried kings, or refit their blameless
	Positions and perfumed swine.
	

	We pull the banner back to a glade
	And pad the grass near the pond
	In a Cretan new year’s bucolic eve,
	Breathing a moist clean sea air,
	We put on  coat after coat of visages 
        Of failed ontogeny, as the soil grew thick from
	The cedar falls, olive falls, 
             this night’s raggy foliage, 
                 a glow of all or efforts.

	We dream past Cumbra Viega somehow
	  Lurking yet nourishing trees like these
	  Naked above the leaf fall, jagged Picasso
	   Branches jitter the moonlight like 
            Beethoven drove on past the rococo
	Flourishes to a new dream, 
      ...over to the 
	Lit ways where windows frame the
	 jig and froth of dizzied animals bogged
	  in their moments still momentum fearing
	  jettison from the rutted plays,

	An alien sense and thought enters
	Like trace poisons from the water system,
	The ill once thought to be the humdrum of
	The housekeeping grates the bone,
	The once new song now a prison.

	Sporting midday on the river’s bluff,
	Picnicking while the busy wonder 
            how they are half spent, 
               inhaling a newly concocted oxide  
   in the breeze, 
       lost serpentine dits, 
           and a belief in the 
              solidity of the sine.

	Myopically the haze is golden, yet below
	 And through it jaggedly pokes the trestle
	  Of the childhood now rust furred, curled
	  Steel orange grates fallen through,
	 Teetering between two major national
	Imperatives, destinies etched like 
          an old boxers face is etched by the glove.

	The new span that goes to this land
	 Painted and busy receives the monition
	  Like the half-life of a continuous dream,
	 Similar to a song parody on a new media
	Begging amnesiac bliss for the grossest errors.
	
	   The first bridge will be washed down 
           the flow and gone before we once again
     Mount this bluff with the same vision,
	A new virtue of redone moral never 
            opening the parental tomes abjuring
	The guiding sanctions of the fathers,
	     Chaining fate to the grub in the tree stump.
	
	Note the petrol trucks flying over the
	Concrete piers sliming the lane middles
	With their tears, blown tires and hitchhike
	 Girls.
	
Old Apollo run his race now and 
  the lunar silver irredesces still stratus 
    drowning out The Day’s tune.

	That musical air thumps dull though music
	Accepts a magic in a second then dies,
	The day run out like a drink from a watercan;
	Dwell on the thought of Sisyphus
	Dithering an escape plan during toil,
	Recall the eve when you first accepted
	Sin.

Oximoronically an unhearable past 
    thunders co-conspirator with you in the
	Eighteen-wheeler crime, wheel on wheel,
	    Heat seeping from the terra-cotta way 
                works a faint mirage with the moon,
	Too submissively, acceptingly, to ever
        Rouge our cheeks with it all.
		Over that horizon, Hoover!
	      Over that Horizon, Jim Falls?
	Over that horizon, Grand Coulee.

.........Interludium.............


All the acre feet of potential
   firmly felt in the mind,
acre feet, kilowatt, leagues deep,
    electric,

         ...........a soft dream  fell into.....


      Your freedom is preserved
         descending each pearly tread in total balance
            from within
      with no chalcedony embrochettes to
      deceive the eye on the chalcedony descent,
          mother of pearl of aqua cast almost
      misty recedes at your puffs of breath
         eyes large wet searching their
      outermost corners,
         nostrils delight in the highest temple smell
      incense spell,
      and seeing all solid illumined
        within externalities
      feeling celestial and sexless angels appear,
        but they are females of your species
      they float to the embarcadaro standing
        on the slightest of crafts in diaphanous robes - 

      You want to join them all but alight in one
        diaphragm bark to quest for the waiting
      demigod, or sought for illusory Goddess these
        seaworthy maiden nymphs promise
      just off shore, where the liquid luminescence 
          lights itself
      with no umbra or chiaschuro penumbra
        in a wakeless instant of distance
      they take you and
      ....She rises dripping of the aqualuminesence
      dripping the aqualuminesence from her
        like water, you are already wet expectant
      drinking a deeper shade
        of beauty, loins effulgent expectantly
      along with the virginal guides of the craft,
        and they and you nearly reach immortality
      at Her sight - -and you faint into the virgin's arms.
 
      They lay you on the shore,
        on a marble floor
      polished columns supporting only
        the most diaphanous silky milk blue
      wisps of fabric,
      The sun seems a vague possibility as you
       open your eyes to them
        and the dawn....
      Stroking the cropped Caesarian locks
         tugging so softly the scalp.

      Through their light robes
       light as the wisps of the fabric on the columns
        above, the small maidenly snowy breasts work
         in a close unison with arm and shoulder. 

      You had a ride, you saw Aphrodite
        arise and fall
      and fell into their care in the temple,
        and lived this day at their bidding...

      Celestial odors of female - her annointed
         spouse and,
      their small weak and urging white hands
         work you back to life,
      They want you badly
       and hum imperceptibly to a man
        who has seen Love unmasked,
         who must make the work
      of Love for them so immortality in the human mind
        perishes not
      for them, or for you, as well, so
       Love lives on - - and to conquer again the
      imperishable bliss
        the enrapturing longings
         of the human soul,
      so love can glow on
       for us all 
        and fill us with awe filled
         peace. 

........the sweet dream ends as they often do
         with a frightful confused panic as you wake....

    Some days were prophesied, seeming never
      to come, then that day comes... dreaming
         upon rising up from the bed
  the waking dream of the unsuccessful,
    the dream of those denied by the
        exchequer, dreaming that recurrent
  wakeful dream briefing with a vain
       hope of a sunbeam.

          Breaking from,
          the slumber,
         Breaking from the
	Slumber to       
         advocate, 
	Vouchsafe you as the ape,
	Vouchsafe you the ape and child both 
          singing in the
	Ear of the pleasures of now,  and long gone 
           kin 
	learned to swim the sea, 
          Lose hair and grow
	 fins 
	Feel the ribs now free from  the depths’
	pressure,  but silent in knowing.

	Vouchsafe this feeling, knowing.

	Deos half-past voiced silver sanctious,
	Mercuric charcoal liquid speaks unworded, 
	Canting the medium where dogfish alert in
	Prophetic monition to Toms and Hucks,
	Bucolically rapt 'tween soaring banks, 
	Float  the water seemingly barkless,
	Wend with the flow  stupefied, sighting the 
	Generator vents, rooks with no seeming
	End tailing gas, their watery ribbon bearing
	Earth to burn far from the spies on the video
	Spectrum dreaming successful ignorance.
	
	Your minds lost syllables revolving 
             midnight
	Cursives of worth each calm hour 
                streamlined                                                                                              
	Like cetacean motion just below the moons
	Silver intrusion in the shallows of your 
               flight,                                                                                                        
	Ears ring from your dialogue, self justifiying
	Babble, a moving newness of idleness,
	Communication taboo, no dispatching you
	your devil friends to Olympify the hierarchy,                                                                                              
	mere aping  the kingly quiet of it’s creator.
	.
	Behold the quietus, quit vibrating the
   Quartz in the timepiece, 
    strike a Diminished note, a grouping of aged vistas
	And clumbsy troughs in the waves of 
   Established cognition, hold a scepter and rise.
	
	
	Toasted beans and stunted corn dot 
    sun done
	fields as in a bizarre mirage, 
   the  townsfolk 	
         stray glance past their images in the smoked	
    shop windows, by god, 
             they are still alive.    

                                                                        
    Bar-stools  enthrone slouch back  lushes
        each their own encanted tone mixing
  in the curls of navy blue smoke around
    the warden's altar, epitomizing a parliament
        like the swallows bag packed in autumn
  circling a gleaned field, some pecked up
    sunflowers seedless below, their own aviary
  of whisky and foamy.

*****************************

Wait..now..now awake!
  Assured this is familiar earth, a sameness of soil.
 
     I can see them  from the field drain lip
   above the lens convex where it cropped
 as if a mounted sculpture above the hearth
.    where the clock is expected.
.
  A pewter silverglow sceptre breaks a pane
   to a land daylit to a tone of straw gold, strewn
      with red maple falls, the fairer sex there
  mimics a tongue of waterfalls and pools
  where water was just caught, edenic.

  By this season they have rethatched their
     homes above in the baring branches  
   in the lower spreading of giant oak,
the skyey surround at their feet
strangely a too full navy on the marges,
  protected by the height, 
 excepting a fatal  misstep.

Even as a total stranger they know you,
they greet you with coy titters, young voiced.
  .
    Here there are only women and they
   great all genders with an embrace as a custom,
  customarily rubbing the floating ribs, unlocking
their hugs you faintly reek redolent of clove
   and frankincense and drink the water they
 captured from the barrel they keep from your 
cupped hands as do they, the excess wetting
   their breasts under their robes, wetting
 your neck and chest. All their eyes are the same 
  almond black diamond sparkle around you
    their eyes all sparkling the same height
above the deck  all stand upon in the branches.
.
 The welcome is that reserved a messiah,
  and a kinship is seen through your
round violet eyes at the incipient moment
 of vision....you have embraced, but are they
  the assemblage of women plucked from the
   spectrum of the past?
... Their skin color waxes from gold
to alabaster faintly and continuously lit, as you can 
 now see, from that horizon of navy not the glowing
  overhead bright skyey where the helio once 
   was the focus, oddly a knowledge they never
  feel the obsidian blink of cerebus enters
 your consciousness.
.
Your hostesses have shucked and ground the 
 acorn to a flour in a perpetual faint breeze and
  mixed it with a wheat from their field and ergot
   from the ditch, all ground consistent for
  this native bread of life all break, they
 sing in moderation a tune from a new erato,
perhaps exiled from some bordello as the voices
 are full of allure and a feeling of the lessening
  of the bodies pain yet without it's total absence,
   the sound impossibly borne not in the air
  but a spirit in your mind. The pain of existence
 merely tempered withal and the spine revolts
nearly spasmodic like that of a child's held,
 enforced penitentially by the parent, with
  a epiphany, a revelation of comforting restraint. 

A tiled maze of escape hatches, some laddered
 some stepped, lead for the atrium to the maze, 
  tiles bear mahjong tile pictograms and figures, first
  impressing the beautiful anemone or dahlia mostly 
 on the eye, but each is distinctly different ......
two pharoah moths pass in a straight  line the 
  way you mean to go up the staircase, they are most
   definitely seen but the eye cannot fix on them like
  a meandering bumble bee,  feeling you climbed
a flight of stairs, you look back for the women and
 see an infinity of tile staircase in faded persimmon
  and lime custard, crooking the neck back up              
   you see they are not ahead either and  the ascent
  goes on, the moths long gone, memory gone
  you stand on a deckplate of tiles with no way
  down.

Your eyes remain wet and liquid, focused admiring
 the structure neither blinking or staring bathed in 
  yet apart from the tiles where there are places for 
   holy icons that are vacant, the pharaoh moths 
  appear again in a glint in the corner of your eye,
 flying from a gold trimmed porthole down the way 
and following
 you look out at the bearing branches around, above,
  and below gnarly barked onyx.
.
Looking out the navy horizon continues the 
ubiquitous illumination in it's palpable way
from all about and the light is now known
as the light at you back on the tiles, with
your shadow unfound  you find the reception
committee is gone.

Filled with a fresh and never before experiences
 physical endurance, more rested than before 
  the climb you can remember everything
   and the time you were a child and chased the 
    fleeing squidgin from the bush and chased it with
     little inky Frisky your pup, 
you and the pup after that
  fluttering mirage of a bird from hedge to hedge, 
   hallooing your baby-sitting uncle, Frisky
     barking the way in the afternoon 
October fog far from the port's
foghorn klaxon. The squidgen was up bared elm
 while the red mist drove you on as a silent
  foxhorn, free from pain and worry in the chase
   as your movement from the sun buried your
own shadow. You remember the sound of
 your breathe in your ear and the story book reading
  before the chase, the frog on the lily pads,
   each karoak rippling the story book pond to
the egrets legs and  around the trunk of the
 downed tree on the shore. Other than hearing your
 own breath the intellect is vacant but not bored.
.
This reminds, clarifies, defines the paradox
 of the Elysian day, how is the pleasure scaled
  against the sound of your painless thought less
    breath in your ear?

    The business that you had, if it was really
    any business before, if it had a mission that was
    worthy, seems to be a liberty to return to, a place
    somewhere beneath the highly studied breath,
    a freedom to return to regardless of the  pangs
    and twitches and shadows, it is a womb
or reality, a Pre-Diluvian sea, a zero-point
blip in space most dense in answer, all pangs
bites and twitches concentrated to the point,
you long to return to the motivational ague.

    Turning back, peering across the platform's tiles
    another porthole is spied trimmed chrome
    luminous to the point of being muddy bright
    squashy feeling like a mouldering apple under the 
the tree, it's light smoke curled cloud churn yet
usable for you to see a crooked shed roofed porch
with a chewing tobacco lit sign in the front
window, half pints and cans decorate the 
    gravel parking. for the cars, the ground hard
    enough to bear the motorcycle stand, propping
    them upright, leaning them as if making a turn
    at speed.
The bar's paint peels, one beams bends under the
   porch roof defying a later crash of the dominoes,
silver cone speakers  thump disc generated sonic
   tease at the roof.

  People come and go as if hunting
Michealangelo's ghost for a scent of good
  in the music's sound never heard in a cathedral,
unshorn workmen shake hands or drop 
  an openhanded pound to the shoulder,
feeling their last day had come sisters full
  habited wayfare to the tavern, a most unheard of
evangelizing as they know they will be 
  excommunicated for acting out of place.
The sisters stare in icy eyes and promise
  paradise. The odd pairings cast thick ink
    shadows the light exhales on them.
.
  That which is jealous rages in your soul and
inflames your inner perceptions, your sister will
  not bring you the wanted salvation, light 

Reason for writing:

    The 
  world has
    changed
welcome
      to
    bootcamp    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-09-25 17:49:41
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:14
Poem ID: 65139

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