My First Loss

by Nicole M. - Gemini

Your first bite of pain
Is the most bitter...
The one
That will change you forever.

I don't remember when we met
But mom has told me the story enough...
Me in the stroller and mom in perfect stride
We heard you in a bush we were passing by.
Following a faint meow
And there you were-
Just my age with dull, light gray matted fur.

You slept in my crib
Always beat mom
Evertime I was crying...
Five years later,
We made the big move,
Sitting side by side in the car.
Out to the country
Out to the wilderness
We explored, unseperable.
I thought you were my guardian angel...
But angels never leave-
After three days of waiting
Calling your name on every hour
I stood in the driveway
Calling your name over and over 
And as reality started to drift in
The calling turned to crying and screaming
Missy
Eventually, all that was left was crying-
I ran from mom when she tried to hug me.
I hated God as much as a six year old could
And I hated this new feeling.

Reason for writing:

    One of my first memories.  My very first cat, Missy.  We never knew what really happened to her, but we're sure that a fox got her.    

Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2001-09-25 19:50:43
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:06
Poem ID: 65149

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