i want to cry so badly right now, but i can't, somehow i'm able to hold it in, i know it's not the best that way, but i can't allow myself to let it go, i can't let it go, if i do, i'd lose all control, on the hows, and the whys, i have to remain focused, i have to be strong, for myself, and for those around me, but i want to so badly let it go, i want to, it hurts so much inside, the hurt from my dad, and from my mom, watching them everyday, looking in their eyes, how much pain they try to hide, i've felt it from their touch, i felt their pain, as well as my own, too much, too much to bare, i have to let go, let it go, but i can't, i'll lose the grip, over myself, the only thing left now, that's still in shape, myself, my heart, my strength, where did it all go, my feelings, my tears, hidden away within my soul, i need them, i need you, as serious as never before, i really need you, the only thing that's been right, in a time that is so wrong, i need you, really do, my shoulder, my lending ears, my hugs, my comfort, but i am at this moment alone now, in this living room, way too quiet, and one member short of four my apartment is, i need to laugh, i need to smile, i need to know that what i do, what i do is right, for me, for us, for everyone, i need to hold someone, i need to talk to someone, i need to cry before i forget how, i need to let it go 11/7/01Birth sign: Capricorn
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