Just so sorry

by ~Ms. Sarah~ - Cancer

It took me so long to figure out what I needed
I had been hurt in the past and
Scared it would happen again
That you were just like all the other guys
The ones who lied and betrayed trust
The fake guys who charmed me and 
Left me once they had what they came for or
Didnt get what they wanted
They were evil, ruthless guys who didnt
give a damn about who I was or where i was going
To them, I was just another girl
Not a person with feelings or emotions
They could have cared less about my heart
So when you came along, I was nervous and afraid
I was guarded by fear and shut you out
I couldnt let you get to me like all the other guys had
Cause I thought youd use me and abuse me and
leave me left with a broken heart
But you turned out to be totally different
Sweet, caring, funny...perfect
So I just assumed you were too good to be true
That you had some sort of secret agenda
You were plotting against me in some way
And once you were finally out of my life
I realized how completely wrong I was
But its too late for us now
I cant go back and ask for your forgiveness
I was selfish and paranoid
I didnt even give you a chance
I thought you would hurt me, but I only hurt myself
So I'm sitting here with this heavy heart
Saddened by my stupid actions
Feeling the tears well up in my eyes
and the warm, salty drips cascading down my face
If only I hadnt been so quick to judge
If only I could make this better
Now that you're gone, I need you more than ever
You were a great guy and I threw it away
I'm sorry, I'm just so sorry...
Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2001-11-18 04:14:21
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:18
Poem ID: 65773

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