Not Anymore

by Antwan Fields - Aries

its become difficult really. so hard to understand
that you really don't want to be my man
not really just sex, not really a shove
to a guy who just keeps falling in love
if i caught you with someone else, would my heart really break?
because it was much too much just to take?
too long and too much and too hard to the touch
its not just sex, and fucking as such
i'm barren, feeling sorry for myself and so ugly and crappy
like the nurse screaming at the kid's wet nappy
given choices i rather don't want to make
feeling there's a lot more than this burning at the stake
staring numbly at the wall feeling like shit on christmas day
knowing nothing of this destruction that plagues me anyway
i'm not reliable they say as they stamp "rejected"
i walk home slowly feeling dejected and disrespected
the chants of people screaming that i'm a teacher's pet
sorry motherfucker, i aint dead yet
i can tell thats how you want it to be
the person you want to see dead the most is me
but i don't care, i'm still searching the floor
but i don't care
not anymore.
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-11-29 20:43:24
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:21
Poem ID: 65975

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