What if

by Reals - Sagittarius

What if? 

I want to know what he thinks of me
What he sees when he looks at me?
What emotions run through him when he is a around me?
His emotions and feelings are masked by his straight face
Showing me nothing, leaving me questions
And hoping some day someone can answer them for me
Does he even care to look?
If he only knew what goes through my mind
My body, my heart and my soul when I see him
He melts me with his eyes
He kills me with his smile 
His hands, if only I could touch them 
I am not afraid of him
I am not afraid to speak to him or to smile
I am terrified of his feelings
His thoughts that runs through him when he looks into my eyes
For will it hurt if I ever find out his feelings-
If there are any feelings for me
His deepest secrets may make or break my heart
For he is the one who can judge that
He is like a virus
He lingers through my mind everyday
And the more I see him the more the feelings spread
Time will only let love fade away
Time, that’s another thing
Time can make or break my heart too
I can’t wait forever
Or can I?
Am I wasting my emotions on this boy?
A boy who shows nothing for me?
He shows no mercy or weaknesses
I am in love with a boy who just doesn’t care
Doesn’t care to see me
I ask myself every day why I put myself through this misery
But then again, I think of “ what if?” and I start all over again.

Reason for writing:

    An everyday crush..    

Birth sign: Sagittarius
Date created: 2001-12-04 21:04:50
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:22
Poem ID: 66045

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