random thoughts

by Matthias L. - Capricorn

there's truth, there's lies
but finally I can't tell them apart
not testified as "good" or "bad"
when I can neither live nor die
just breathe out all my lies
reflections of myself, my inner masquerade
deliberately chained, don't stop, don't look
just let it flow
dash across the borders with intense pain behind my eyes

there is a trail, another track of what I've said and done
I know you understand
I've told you what it means
an eternity ago it was, I think 
for far too many days
I've been lacking certain features
that I believe I had a while ago
innocence or spirit or creativity
it's futile to think about it now
just don't make me stay

I have to lose my wings
and get closer to the sun
to rid myself of all these instincts
that iron link we call 'survival'
I have to lose it all
to really become free
to enjoy the fall

Reason for writing:

    I wish I could tell in here... anywhere...    

Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2001-12-09 18:15:17
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:24
Poem ID: 66120

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