My Dearest Jacob

by Mystyblu - Taurus

My dearest Jacob,
I write this on your tenth birthday,
you have only known me 
as an aunt,
the one who sends fabulous gifts,
has an ever ready listening ear,
always encouraging and suporting,
someone to tell how unfair
mom and dad have been.

I've lied to you all these years
for I am not your aunt
but your mother.
I carried you for nine months
terrified of what the future 
would bring,
it was for the best, Jacob,
my sister and her husband 
were able to give you everthing,
while I had nothing.

I'm so sorry,
didn't realize the time we had was 
so short,
if I'd known,
we would have been together
as mother and son,
just wanted to spare your
innocence and youth,
I was wrong.

Looking down at you
lying so peaceful in your casket,
I wish I could turn back time,
hold you in my arms
as a mother should,
tell you the truth,
face to face,
but I can't.

I dreamed of you last night,
got down on my knees,
begged your forgiveness,
cursed the fates for turning 
against us,
wanting you to know 
I did love you.

You smiled with your wings
gently flapping in the wind,
opened your heart
forgave me,
we embraced,
finally,
as mother and son.

My dearest Jacob,
I will miss you so.




Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2001-12-09 19:12:13
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:24
Poem ID: 66121

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