Reality

by Timil Deeps - Cancer

I try to be the best I can
I try to live up to my expectations
But in a world of shallowness and greed
aren't they really all manipulations?

Is what I am looking for not within these walls?
Cause I'm searching for somewhere I fit in
But everywhere I go I am a outsider
All my past inspiration I have learned are sins

Where do I look for what I want to be?
My life is more than this
I want to know where the heroes are
Where hatred does not exist

There are too many boundaries
In this world of cold heartedness
I search for lack of ignorance
I am getting numb, their words are becoming painless

I want to be free from my fears
I'm sick of the color tints
Free from this cage that I'm held in
I loved my world where everything made sense

I remember a time when all was good
I use to always  feel like I was in a day dream
when time stopped cause of overwhelming bliss
I felt that where I was I was belonging

Where do I look for what I want to be?
My life is more than this
I want to know where the heroes are
Where hatred does not exist

Where in the world do we learn right from wrong?
Everyone's jumping to conclusions
They can not know a thing about me
Or is life just some more pointless illusions?

I try to break out of the things that confine me
They try to make me feel low
I try to remember they should mean nothing 
cause I've experienced more than they could ever know

I am waking up from what I hoped was true
I'm trying to face reality
But in my heart I will always try to live
In that place where people forget technicalities

Where do I look for what I want to be?
My life is more than this
I want to know where the heroes are
Where hatred does not exist

Reason for writing:

    There is a difference between understanding and hating...    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2001-12-14 18:26:16
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:25
Poem ID: 66199

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