Walking Blind

by Timil Deeps - Cancer

Why is it that you never can see
How hard I try to expect less 
Cause of how much you mean to me
I made my whole life a mess

I feel like I fell in a hole
And am digging deeper when trying to be free
But when I needed you most
I always notice it was hard for you to see
 
You tried to pretend that I mattered
But you turned my back on me 
You’ve lived your life with your eyes closed
Walked life’s hardships blindly

I try to tell you I care about you
But the ocean is too deep
I’m treading water waiting for you
My strength is hard to keep

My life spins around me
All is like a flash of light
I grip on and hold on tightly
But reality is now in my sight

It is not fair that I drag myself down
I try so hard just to keep myself up 
But I’m always told to keep my feet on the ground
Why is it for you not enough

Do I pretend I ask for little
But truly ask too much to bear
In a world that holds me tightly
Am I expecting greatness, yet never tried to share

All the gift that you are given
All the wonders of the universe
All the times I jumped in to save you
All the times it could have been worse

I try to tell you I care about you
But the ocean is too deep
I’m treading water waiting for you
My strength is hard to keep

My life spins around me
All is like a flash of light
I grip on and hold on tightly
But reality is now in my sight

Did I look at the world too negatively?
Do I see my life filled with despair?
All the times you knew that you could do better
All the times I wished you was there

If there is one thing I can tell you
and I really do mean what I say
All the chances you had and lost it
And all the times you walked away

It was all just a big mistake
I took it all for nothing
But when you get down to earth
I want to say life is more then something

I try to tell you I care about you
But the ocean is too deep
I’m treading water waiting for you
My strength is hard to keep

My life spins around me
All is like a flash of light
I grip on and hold on tightly
But reality is now in my sight

I wish you can live life clearly
And if some day you can see
For all that has been done wrong
Together is where we will always be

In a final thought of hope I hold
I wish you could say without words
"When time is bad and life's not fair,
Just think of me and I'll be there" 

I try to tell you I care about you
But the ocean is too deep
I’m treading water waiting for you
My strength is hard to keep

My life spins around me
All is like a flash of light
I grip on and hold on tightly
But reality is now in my sight

Wake up from your simple day dream
Wake up from what you wish you were
Wake up from you shallowness
Wake up....your life’s a blur

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2001-12-15 19:43:47
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:14
Poem ID: 66221

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