Spite

by Timil Deeps - Cancer

I drop to the ground with my eyes closed tight
You pick me up merely in spite
I turn around from the problems that lurk
In the depths of the webs that surrounds your heart
For all that was once clear is now a blur
And all that I knew is ruined for sure
Fear is in the beams of presence
Splitting apart alone in the dark
Alone in my world spun and twirled
My illusions are killing my brain
Words keep my head in one place 
Actions have a different effect
The one thing that I have left
Is like a mirror of reflection
Being shattered by hatred
I can't go on in this mind of a kid
The candy store has been open for days
But the candy is all rotted in the mildewy haze
I drop to the ground with my eyes closed tight
You pick me up merely in spite
I turn around from the problems that lurk
In the depths of the webs that surrounds your heart
For all that was once clear is now a blur
And all that I knew is ruined for sure
Spinning with my arms out is only a way to keep space
From anything coming at me who I can't see there face
The warmth is too hot that I can't stop my pace
Time is on a circling path, lightly my life like a firefly 
Even if it didn't it would just be another lie
Waiting for me until the day I die
I ask for someone who sees clearer than my world
Can see through the thick fog into the pearled
Universe with all the answers
No one knows the definitions in the book
That has been written out by you and took
To all extremes to every cliff everywhere I run I trip
Over your corpses that float through my mind
Curling and twisting in pathetic rhymes
I drop to the ground with my eyes closed tight
You pick me up merely in spite
I turn around from the problems that lurk
In the depths of the webs that surrounds your heart
For all that was once clear is now a blur
And all that I knew is ruined for sure

Reason for writing:

    Ever heard of free association writing?...this is that.    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2001-12-15 19:51:18
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:26
Poem ID: 66223

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