I'll never know

by ~Ms. Sarah~ - Cancer

I wish I could explain the way he makes me feel inside
No one ever seems to understand
They only see me being this stupid, mindless girl
They tell me how awful he treated me
And that I need to face reality and move on
But they dont know what I feel for him
My heart aches when he's gone, I cry myself to sleep
Im jealous that other girls get to be with him
They get to touch him and kiss him and be in his arms
I wasnt good enough for him, I was never enough
Thats the pain I have to live with
Everyday it eats at me more and more
To know the one I want doesnt want me in return
To love someone with all that I have
And hear its just not enough
I try and try and I always fail
Its such a useless race that Im competing in
I'll never reach the finish line
I'll never have the prize, I'll never have his love
I long for his acceptance
I wish I was everything he dreamed of
I know I could be his perfect girlfriend
But I also know he'll never give me the chance
So why do I not move on and let him go?
Why do I not find another to love?
Why do I torture myself with his lies and his heartbreak and his rejection?
I do not know...
Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2001-12-17 02:08:11
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:26
Poem ID: 66246

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