The Longer I Wait

by Twan - Aries

i'm not getting any younger
stupid words coming from me
i'll just get older
and feel 
as useless as i did now
i'm not ready for a relationship
can't do that again
can't go through that pain right now
but the merry go-round continues

i raise my head into the sunlight
too bright i squint against it and than look up
and realize it was just a dream
that cruelty of the subconcious
looking into the mind and snickering
the longer time goes...

and the more i wait, the more i pick wrong
another shameful chapter in my life is written
another useless failure am i
my chatterbox tells me

the names roll off my tongue
but i only know three people i have been truly in love with
Danny
Juan
ANGEL...

and so it comes to me that as my 19th birthday is three months away
the more i begin to understand
the longer i wait
the pickier i become
and the pickier i become
the worse the roller coaster becomes

sometimes i believe that the people around me actually care
than i realize i can't trust too many people

and the longer i wait to stand up and become solvent
the more chance becomes
that that will never happen.

Reason for writing:

    you'll understand    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2001-12-26 19:03:31
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:28
Poem ID: 66367

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