self-destruction

by Twan - Aries

i take pen in hand today to write
about watching someone i loved disappear
people i used to know that told me lies
i fight my own self-destruction
i used to be anti-everything
now i drink
i've turned into someone i don't really like
or do i?
i don't really know
i'm numb to the touch
but brush your fingers against my arm and i shiver as if in orgasm
i feel unmoored

i landed up against a wall
and looked hard at my attacker
i swung and it swung and we both struck
and i lay on the ground and wondered 
who was this??
and than my attacker pulled off his mask
it was me
and my twin grinned at me.

so after this chilling effect
the harm it wrecked
i looked at my own self-destruction
it comes too fast
i'm not ready
and we never are.

we can never ever know
our own wreckage
i stare into the setting sun
i have become...
something.
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2002-01-12 15:02:23
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:34
Poem ID: 66669

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