Do you know what its like?! to badly want to kill urself not to be wanted or loved and always alone and all by myself? do you know the feeling deep down inside of envy Where you just wanna hurt somebody-maybe even me?! you dont know how ive felt or what ive experienced to be like that sometimes i still think i shouldof used it.. that i should of used that knife - and took my worthless life i had so many perfect chances and i was on the verge again, but then i met you you gave me a reason to care ...maybe you werent all that aware because at that point i thought... there's no use - for the fact that i'd just be forgot But i was almost sure you would miss me- i hoped, u being the only person maybe and thats somewhat y it didnt happen to me sometimes tho, i think i should have done it do you know what its like? to have that harsh feeling inside and not be able to let it out for quite a long time so im thinking, what should i do now? that was all years ago - those thoughts......corrupted me i dont even know how you dont understand what this is like- u wouldnt at all all that matters now to me is if im at all loved and if i happen to be, i would like to know why... if theres no reason, theres no truth - and its always been a lie! and i shouldof used that knife - every single fucking time!!!
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Birth sign: Cancer
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