Maybe he doesn't care that much or maybe not even at all. I guess I'll have to see for myself and I'll realize it when I start to fall. I try to make myself believe that its all gonna be alright. But I get so depressed and confused that I sometimes cry all damn night!!! I don't think HE understands but I try my best to make him see. I'm not at all ok with this and I'm comin close to insanity! Maybe he don't care and this is all just a game. In the end he'll be satisfied as I walk away in shame. Shame that I fell for him as hard as I possibly could. Shame that I didn't let him go when I knew that I should. I think we can fix all this if only he could see. That all I need from him, now, is to see that I'm not happy. Maybe then he'd realize that he's slowly makin me die. Maybe then he'd realize that every night HE makes me cry. Maybe I could do better but right now I'm all confused. I don't know whats goin on or what else I need to do. Thats prolly why my heart is bruised. There is one person I can trust and its definetly not him. She always trys to help... Thanks, Ashleigh, for being my best friend! You tell me its gonna be ok and he's not worth my time. You say WE'RE gonna get through this and later on I'll be fine. I know you want the best for me and you don't wanna see me sad.. And I wish that you could feel the ache that I never thought I'd have. You may think I'm stupid and I need to open my eyes. Somtime soon I'll see it. I'll finally realize. Right now I need to do it myself and make my own mistake. Even though I know I'm nowhere... but headin toward heart-break. I want all this to work out more than anyone could ever know. Its nothin but hope I'm relyin on and hopefully in the end it'll show. All I wanna do now is wait. Wait for him to see... that what he's really doin is slowly killin me. Maybe he doesn't care that much or maybe not even at all I guess I'll have to see for myself and I'll realize it when I start to fall.
Reason for writing:
Boyfriend problems....again! Please comment!!!!!!!!!!
Birth sign: Gemini
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