for everyone i hate

by Twan - Aries

i leave my house with a 357 in my hand
who do i shoot first? i think i'll start with the person in front of me
who always gets in line ahead of me
who's next? i'll shoot the person who always looks at me suspiciously at the grocerystore and thought i was stealing
while my schoolmates robbed him blind
or the racist guy in his blackthunderbird
who almost hit me with his car
or the racist teacher who tells me that
i'll be nothing in my life
or the scumbags who drive by and scream the word "fag!"
from the safety of their windows
or the guy who's constantly in my face
cause he thinks i'll back down
or i guess i'll just shoot that guy
who bullied me back in grade school
the experiences were short 
the memories were long
or maybe i'll just shoot myself
save myself the trouble
but the darkness clears from my head
that wasn't going to work
so i get up from my bed
return to the world
till that next time 
when the world that has squirreled away
my life and my love for what i am
proves its uncaringness
and i want it to stop
just once.
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Reason for writing:

    just think about it.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2002-01-15 17:18:16
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:35
Poem ID: 66730

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